I have so many goals that I am ready to achieve, but somehow, I still have trouble finding the motivation to actually start them. Don't get me wrong, I've began these goals sometime before, but while on the road to reach them, I always stumble into a pothole and end up getting a flat tire. What I mean is that either something gets in the way or I just lose total motivation to keep it going. How can oneself find this inner motivation? Let me tell you one of my goals. I get intimidated by it because it's so large, it isn't something you can do overnight. I would like to move out of my parents' house. My Life Management professor gave the class some advice on reaching huge goals. You really gotta start small. Tackling the whole "moving out" thing all in one piece is way too overwhelming, am I right? Starting small like cutting down shopping to save more money can be something I can start with. But what I'm wondering is, how do I stay consistent? As bad as I want to move out, I love to eat out and shop. I always have this desire to buy something I see at the store that I like. It's such a bad habit and I don't know how to curb it.
I need help on saving money. Should I make a savings account? I'll sign up for direct deposit and schedule my money transfers to the account right when I get paid so that I don't even see the money that's being saved. That is what is so hard about getting paid salary. I want to save a lot, but if I do, I won't have enough money to last me the whole month! I will most likely take my own advice though, and open up a savings account.

Smiling is the best revenge...

Procrastination

I knew it! I am so bad at this blogging thing. I literally have three drafts sitting in my dashboard. I type stuff up, but then I get really lazy with finishing them.
So I started fall semester. It's pretty entertaining, actually. I'm taking it easy with two classes this time around. I initially started with 4, but I knew I couldn't do it especially being fresh out of academic delinquency. Yeah, I don't want to fuck it up the third time around. I'm taking Human Sexuality and Life Management. Both very entertaining classes, which I feel very lucky to have because I'm starting  school all over again and I could've been stuck with a boring-ass professor that doesn't really talk much about anything but themselves. That would kill me. I feel so blessed because I got these two teachers to start my college life off to a good start. Not many students can say that, right?

I recently took two days off work because I wasn't feeling well. I got a pinched nerve last Wednesday night and took Thursday and Friday off. I got my nipples pierced and I really hope I don't get shit for it at work because I won't be able to go into the pool on Tuesdays. Oh well.

Holy shit, I just remembered that I need to do my Coat of Arms project. It's due on Wednesday!!

Colousa Bound!

 Road trip with my parents! We're going to Colousa to play Bingo and some slot machines. 3 hour drive so I'm pretty thankful that I got my magazines and my iPad to keep me company!

Relieved

As sad as this sounds and I feel guilty about saying this (long story), but it is very safe to say that today was the start of something new. I know I can get through this small stage of social anxiety and until I get there, I will continue to think positive, try my hardest to not over-think things like I usually do and always keep my head up... More details coming soon, but this will do for now. I was too excited to keep it all to myself, I just had to share it somehow.

Me, Myself, and I

Since I have one last hour to myself, I thought I would just go ahead and write a quick "About Me" for my (future) readers.

I live in sunny California with my parents and two sisters. I work as a para-educator and I love every minute of it. I am also currently attending community college, looking to transfer and getting my Bachelors in Psychology to be a speech therapist for children with disabilities. When I'm not at work or sitting in class, I enjoy reading books and I subscribe to Cosmopolitan magazine. I have a boyfriend and we've been dating for about two years now and we love going out. I enjoy cooking as much as I love eating! It's safe to say; I'm a foodie! I enjoy browsing Yelp for the best places to eat. I love trying new foods.
As for working out and getting in shape, I know it's something that is important in a healthy lifestyle, but to be honest, I'm not too fond of it, but I get a workout in every now and then. I don't really like to go out much unless it's with my boyfriend, I'm pretty much a homebody. I guess it's a good thing, but at times it does get boring.
I've never gone to a doctor about this, but I do believe I have social anxiety. I try not to let it take over me most of the time.

I can't really think of anything else right now! I guess that's all, folks!

Thought I would start blogging again. I figured that since I don't have any friends, I need to find another way to vent out all my problems. To those of you reading this, you're probably thinking, "No friends? How does she do it?" Well, I do. Some days I go through the day perfectly and some days I just scream desperately for an ear to listen or just a buddy to go shopping with. But until then, I'm a loner. Well, not really. I have my boyfriend.

So I'm thinking, should this blog have a theme? I mean, my prediction is that I'm just going to be ranting and complaining about my life. Of course there's going to be entries about the happy times of my life... Oh! Maybe I should even do photos, too. I mean, I did love picture books when I was a kid, even until now. It would kind of be like a picture book in a way.

The thing about me is, I'm all over the place. I could be talking about one thing and then something else the next. I am also very random, people would say. So if you become a reader of my blog, expect a lot of that.